{"id":6592,"date":"2018-02-19T17:25:52","date_gmt":"2018-02-19T11:55:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/trulymadly.com\/blog\/?p=6592"},"modified":"2022-04-29T10:19:59","modified_gmt":"2022-04-29T10:19:59","slug":"letters-to-my-ex-an-excerpt","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/trulymadly.com\/blog\/letters-to-my-ex-an-excerpt\/","title":{"rendered":"Letters To My Ex – An Excerpt of The Book"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Nikita Singh<\/span><\/i><\/a> is the bestselling author of ten novels, including Every Time It Rains and Like a Love Song. She is also a contributing writer to The Backbenchers series and the editor of two collections of short stories, 25 Strokes of Kindness and The Turning Point. Here\u2019s a sneak peek into her latest novel, Letters To My Ex.<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

From<\/strong>: Abhay Shukla<\/span><\/p>\n

Sent<\/strong>: 23\/3\/2017 4:40 PM<\/span><\/p>\n

To<\/strong>: Nidhi Sharma<\/span><\/p>\n

Subject<\/strong>: I need to say this<\/span><\/p>\n

Nidhi,<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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Since you won\u2019t take my phone calls or respond to my texts, this is the only way I can think of reaching you without you calling the police on me. <\/span><\/p>\n

I must say, it\u2019s kind of crazy how quickly you went from not being able to imagine a life without me to this. You see me on the street, and you immediately turn the other way, as if you never knew me.<\/span><\/p>\n

I know you\u2019re angry for many different reasons, and somehow, at the moment, all of it is directed exclusively towards me. <\/span><\/p>\n

That\u2019s okay; it\u2019s your prerogative. You\u2019re allowed to feel whatever it is you\u2019re feeling. So, if you don\u2019t want to talk to me or even see my face without cringing, that\u2019s okay. <\/span><\/p>\n

You don\u2019t have to. But I do need to get this off my chest, so I will leave this in your inbox and so you have the option to read it if\/when you want to.<\/span><\/p>\n

We broke up. You broke us up. You decided to end things, I was not involved in any planning or decision-making, and my wishes were definitely not considered in this decision that affected my entire life. <\/span><\/p>\n

But okay. If one person out of the two doesn\u2019t want a relationship, it dies right then and there. I couldn\u2019t force you to stay with me when you so clearly didn\u2019t want to. I accepted that as you literally ran away and left me behind.<\/span><\/p>\n

But won\u2019t you agree that it\u2019s okay for me to find someone else since we are not together anymore? Has the mourning period passed? <\/span><\/p>\n

Am I allowed to rebuild my life now? Or should I just go crawl into a hole and die? Is that what you\u2019d like to see? Or do you just not care at all?<\/span><\/p>\n

Well, considering your reaction today when you saw me walking out of that store with Piya, you do care.<\/span><\/p>\n

Was it the fact that I didn\u2019t look absolutely miserable, or that it was Piya I was with, or just that I am still alive that bothered you the most?<\/span><\/p>\n

How are you liking this letter to an ex? Let us know in the comments below.<\/i><\/strong><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t owe you an explanation at all, but because I\u2019m still human, and I still care about you (my feelings don\u2019t switch off in a split second like yours, you see), I will tell you this \u2013 you can relax. There\u2019s nothing going on between Piya and me. She got that job that Dad got her an interview for, so she wanted to meet up and thank me over coffee. Again, in the interest of honesty, I do think she likes me. But I don\u2019t think it\u2019s a big deal, and I\u2019m sure it\u2019s just a fleeting emotion. As far as my feelings towards her are concerned, there aren\u2019t any.<\/span><\/p>\n

As much as I\u2019d like to move on, I can\u2019t feel anything about anyone, even if I tried. I don\u2019t know if I ever will. When I try to imagine a time where I would be able to place all of my faith in another human being and trust them with everything I have, I simply cannot see it happening again.<\/span><\/p>\n

Do you wish to read more such letters to ex? Let us know in the comments.<\/i><\/strong><\/p>\n

I gave you everything I had, every piece of me was yours, but you didn\u2019t want it. It seemed like you did, you know when you told me a thousand times that you loved me and wanted to build a life with me and couldn\u2019t imagine living without me.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Anyway, I have thought about this for days and weeks and months at the end and haven\u2019t been able to find an answer. I\u2019d be lying if I said I wasn\u2019t expecting you to give me one. Even as you were breaking my heart, I knew that there was a reason when you left. I know that you didn\u2019t just do it for no reason at all. And I knew that one day you would tell me why. It\u2019s been three months now, and you spin on the spot and go the other way when you see me, so I\u2019d be an idiot to expect any honesty or any words at all from you.<\/span><\/p>\n

Lastly, I won\u2019t take too much of your time with this, but I need to tell you that I\u2019m angry too with you. I don\u2019t fully understand what happened that day. I can think of a few reasons why you were unhappy with the way things were. However, even after thinking about this a lot, I can\u2019t think of something so big and unresolvable that would make you decide to end everything immediately. I know that things were stressful at home. They were stressful for me too. But I was dealing with it. I could see that at the other end of this would be us, together. All that mattered to me was that we would be with each other, and everything would go where it was supposed to. But that was clearly not what mattered to you.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m sorry if I\u2019m aggressive in this email. I understand that if I\u2019m unhappy with the way I expressed something, I can easily edit it. But I won\u2019t, in the interest of honesty. I\u2019m not pleased with how I expressed some things in this letter, but I honestly feel this way, so I\u2019m presenting you the unadulterated version of the truth.<\/span><\/p>\n

Also, I didn\u2019t mean to sound this formal. But considering how I feel as if I don\u2019t know you at all anymore, it\u2019s quite fitting.<\/span><\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know how to close this. I have no expectations from you.<\/span><\/p>\n

Hope you\u2019re happy.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Abhay<\/span><\/p>\n

Watch out for more such exciting excerpts from <\/span><\/i>Harper Collins India<\/span><\/i><\/a> that will keep you hooked on our blog!<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

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